Reality

last day of running and where the meter starts

2009-11-02T20:30:00.003+08:00

i no longer work in the job that offers me 5.50 per hour , but now im working in starhub where it offers $7 per hours . monday to friday , from 10 am - 6 pm or 12pm - 8 pm . saturday from 10 am - 2 pm . today had the last training , called customer and everything , got tis particular rude customer , which just hung up the phone while im talking and explaining things to him , i was like mailto:%60!@#$^&*()*&^%$@#$%^&*( !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i remained calm . so altogether i get 2 contracts with two customers . :):):) . tomorrow im gonna try harder . i damn tired lah .tomorrow i have to wake up at 7.30 !! so early !

last friday had a great time with syahirah . went to warren , swim , sauna , steamer and arcade . we played , shoot , shag and marry hahahah !!
okay lah , im going to watch tv , baby bonus starting soon :) oooppss , i mean daddy at home !

i like Valentino Rossi !!!

2009-10-26T20:29:00.004+08:00

2 days in malaysia were fun !!

1st day

i woke up at 6.30 am , then showered and everything , den off to malaysia . den straight away go machap to wait for my father's friends . we ate as we waited for them , an hour later they reached so we off to melaka . we stayed in INB resort , my uncle's friend's resort . we check in . den we went to mydin mall . we ate lunch there . then i saw this one particular malaysian aunty , went and buy a soup with big bone , ohmygod !!! its tulang/bonesteak and it is damn big lah . they call it gearbox ! haha nice uh . one of that cost RM10 so ex !! haha but nice uh . den we went around , go to the supermarket and i bought t-shirt as i forgot to bring my swimming suit . so walk around , then found this mini doughnut stall , ohmy ! the doughnut so small lahh , it so nice and it sells at a dozen of doughnut for Rm3.90 . so cheap . den back to hotel , my dad and mum sleep while me and my sister went to swim . but we were very tired so we like swim only for a while . den we went to sleep . around 8 pm , we all went to go -kart (idk how to spell) so fun lah i tell you , different age will take different cc of the car . i forget whats the cc . den we off to take dinner at jusco . we went to this nando's restaurant , i ate 1/4 chicken with rice . altogether for the mine , sis , dad and mum was Rm80 plus service and govt. tax . then we go home and sleep .

at around 2 am , my phone rang and it was super loud ! guess who call me ! i was like rejected it . my mum was like " ehh ! who call you ??" den i was like "eerrrr idk lahh , wrong number maybe , i dint recognise the number " den she said "ohhh , go sleep lah" i was like phewww !! wth , he called me at 2 am CRAZY !

2nd day

woke up at 7.15 am . showered , packed went for breakfast den off to KL , sepang . before that we go and find money changer as we left with Rm 100 , so not enough to buy the ticket to watch motor GP . so went to NILAI , we were like crazy go around to find money changer , finally found it at GIANT . while my mum changing money , i go wander around alone , haha den i find this nice dress , and i ran back to my mum and ask for money , den my dad gave RM50 . so i bought it or RM25 . haha den off to Sepang F1 circuit . the weather was damn hot lah !! luckily i bought fan . haha my father went to buy the ticket for us , he wanted to buy the Rm80 one , but i said the RM30 is better than RM80 as the RM 30 the view is nicer , although its hotter than RM80 , and my dad said see first lah , den he go and buy the RM30 as he lazy to queue for RM 80 one . the queue as damn long lah . den we go to find our seats . its free seating , and we sit there . the 125 cc starts and it was boring as i want to watch the 800cc one ! it was damn crowd this year almost all seats occupied and people have to seat at the staircase , i dont understand why they have to sell more tickets as there only few seats . my dad sat at the first seat and beside him was me . den he received call from his friend , kenny , he actually bought RM500 one for himself , and he waited for his friends . waste money go buy RM30 one den go Rm500 . not fair !! he get to see Valentino Rossi loh !! nvm nvm . before the 800cc start and during 250cc , there was like 10000 people doing wave lah haha so fun , everyone was so united and supportive haha . den i went down to buy drinks , we were queueing , for like 40 mins , haha to buy drinks , den the 800cc almost starts and that time was their warm up . me and my sister was like so pissed off as the salesmans were damn slow . but thx god , it rains , and they postponed it . otw in to our seat , alot of people crowding at the entrance , den my friends was like finding a way to go in , den got this one indian man say "excuse excuse , i got seat inside , i got seat , i want to go in " very irritating , den my friend shouted " eh !! shut up lah !! we also got seat inside okay !!! can you wait ??? please ?!!!!!!!" woahh !! so daring of her to shout in public loh , everyone was quiet , haha . den we go down to our seat everyone was like shouting at us , "Weewit !" i was looking down all the way so paiseh lahh ! haha den we finally at our seat , den got this preety sexy women go up the stairs and alot of guys were " wee wit ! oooooooooohhhh !!! " hahaha den the woman can still wave sia . haha den the 800cc started , ROSSI was leading then when he was turning he slowed down , and 7 motor overtake him !!! ahhh !!!! i was damn disappointed lah , my sister until scold vulgarities everything , everyone was like so quiet , den we saw this motor spinning aroung , we thought was rossi , all was like "omg is that rossi ??" i was so like no lah cannot be . den we saw rossi still in the lap , haha scare all of us . den rossi manage to beat the person infront of him , den infront of him of him again , until he fourth position , den the third position motor , fell hahaha !!! den rossi manage to get third , den rossi was like yay !! from 8th position to 3rd position , although he make mistake at first but he didnt disappoint all of us :)

the race finish and we exit it was like omg !! thousands of people , crowded , to exit the place , with one small door ?? omg !!everyone was pushing one another including me ! hah

after that me , sis and my mum and my father's friend without my father , we were like finding our car den we cannot find eh , den i called my dad and he told the way den someone called my name " sakinah , sakinah !" den i turned omg its akif !! haha such a small world !! i said hi !! haha

den like 20 mins we finally found our car .

after that we said bye to my dad's friends as they going different way , so bye loh . den we went back to Nilai GIANT . i bought pants there , and guess what , we went to leg therapy . is not people massage but it was fishes which massage uh . here are the picture

den we go home straight and reach home at 12 am .

ill stop here , i'm watching baby bonus :)

i will never consider

2009-10-23T23:25:00.002+08:00

well just now i went to bpp to buy the bag that i want , that cost $20 . i felt relieved after i bought it , so tomorrow i can use the bag to KL . actually there's something i want to blog about and only syamel and vincent know about this . it is so funny if i were to think me and someone .............. !!! haha nvm , humans have heart and feeling . so nothing wrong with that , so yah . vincent is like the middle person between us . hahaha nvm i dont feel like telling because i cant stop laughing .

and to syahirah and the girls : i dont think i can make it this wednesday as i'll be start working either tuesday , on that day itself or thursday .

i'll be a busy woman i tell you ! hahaha . like real . but i cant wait to work . it will be very tired . everyday work non-stop . i will be earning $44 per day . so like $220 per week , and $880 per month , i will take 40%( some of it i will give my grandma ) , 10% to my father , 40% to my mother . i dont need so much money . i will be working for 2 mths , so altogether err , $1760 for 2 mths :) hahaha im so excited .

okay lah i need to do the chores and then go to sleep as i have to wake up at 5.30 am tomorrow . goodnight people .

note : forgotten :)

Who tackling who ?

2009-10-22T20:36:00.003+08:00

today i SHOPPED !ALONE :) with just $99 in my wallet . 700 , bus-ed to ION orchard 30 mins . i was like woah ! am i rich or what to shop at ION orchard . but when i entered i saw typical singaporeans with normal plain tshirts , shorts and slippers . so i dont think ION's stuff are expensive . i went to this RUBI shop . woah ! it sells shoes at a cheap price and i bought 3 shoes . 2 for $25 and 1 for $19.95 so altogether are $44.95 . so i like left with $54.05 . then i window shop , i looked around nothing special , it is just like normal shopping centre . so i take orchard MRT to Dobhy Ghaut .
i went to plaza singapura , went to buy this handphones diamond thing my mother wants it . so bought it for $4.90 . and i left with $49.15 . at the same time (insertname) sms me and say i'm stupid :( hahaha ! he said he is _ _ _ _ _ _ _ me ! i was like eeeee ! haha only syahirah knows , she was like eeee also ! haha after bought the diamong thing , i MRT -ed to bugis .
and Shopped at bugis street . i bought a tight for $16 and dress for $22 . den now i am left with $11.15 . tomorrow im going lot one to shop at cotton on , alone again with $60.15 . my sister wants to tag along but NO ! i love to shop alone , because i felt that when you shop alone , you are very free to go anywhere you want , no ppl disturb you and you can stay in one shop for like how long you want lah . no ppl will say "faster leh !" . i hate to go shopping with my parents . someone wanted to go just now , but i said NO ! . i'm bad hor . nvm thats me . tomorrow , i have to buy this bag that cost $20 ! have to ! i was like woah ! it attracts me lah this bag . so i have to buy that . and idk what to buy at cotton on (: . at the same time i'm meeting tina to return her the chalet deposit money and maybe meeting him(see first) .
this saturday im going KL . den go idk where to watch motor GP . i dont feel like watching but i want to shop at KL . so i have to go loh . and will be back sunday night .
oh yah , im changing number soon :( !!! being forced by my dad as my monthly bill was always above $70 . so he ask me to use my mum's previous number . i hate changing number . nvm lah :)
i know , im crazy over you . but now i have to promise to everyone i will forget you . i will .

note: pls lah , help me :

exhausted !

2009-10-21T15:26:00.003+08:00

i'm not going to blog what happens during chalet . i'm sleepy and forever lazy .
this is what i want and do during holiday :
1. _ _ _ _ _ _ !( ya Allah kabulkan lah permintaan ku yang ini )
2. get my $325 at the end of october (duit senoman ? )
3. go KL ( to watch motor gp ) this saturday
4. go pool
5. go LOt 1 (cotton on)
6. go Plaza Singapura (miss whatever (: )
7. spent $250 @bugis , lot one (cotton on ) and plaza Singapura to buy atleast
a. 2 dresses
b. 2 tights/pants/shorts
c. 2 bags
d. 2 shoes
e. 1 wallet
f. make up bag

i go sleep :)

2009-10-18T09:29:00.004+08:00

@haziq's condo :D

syahirah's face covered with flash

minah miang with the so called "hotstuff" guy

naziela , me , shamira and syahirah @ yew tee

point toilet

the 3 minahs !

2009-10-07T17:15:00.001+08:00

haha , its rare to see cat lying like this . so cute right like the owner :D haha !

aiya i need to go tuition !

to be continued :D

2009-10-06T19:18:00.002+08:00

this picture was not taken infront of the mirror is my mother take for me , haha we got nothing to do . btw yesterday chemistry paper was okay , bio was quite diff , i think i can get 2 for science , hopefully :D

today , had math paper , was 87.5% easy . i think i can get 70/80 if i have no careless mistake , hopefully no careless mistake . i want to get 1 for maths ! must :D ! tomorrow no school , still thinking whether want to geog class or not , lazy lah . i like not interested in geography . nvm for the sake of my future I HAVE TO STUDY GEOGRAPHY ! : !

note : you are different now , seriously .

i'm very happy now :D

2009-10-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

first of all , concern 4b chalet , 4b is the bomb lah ! many people pay full already ! im so cant wait for the chalet !
second , im just feel very happy although what i planned yesterday didnt work out today :(
nvm..... !!
haha thats all lah , i also dont know what to post .

later lah !

i'm laughing !

2009-10-01T08:26:00.003+08:00

when i think about it , it was so silly of me . hahaha ! what tina and syahirah said is true . but i really felt happy yesterday . haha im dumb and im crazy . i just felt that i dont want to lose to (insertname) . haha , but actually i never did ! haha . i realised i had a lot of good/best or even true friends . they are : syahirah , tina , shamira , ying ying , vivien , cheryl , shun da , ling sheng , yong fa , syamel , kuijun , isaac . they are my alkaline !! i tell you uh they are the best !! the best you will never have . not forgetting vincent who cares for me . i know he cares . wei cheng ! haha bird , who always ask me to cheer up . and almost everyone asked me to cheer up . eh hello ! i'm always cheered up . nothing makes me sad :D nothing will . im so surrounded by friends who are always there for me . really im happy now . :D !

I LOVE TO SMILE !

okay got to go , got to do science revision .

i thought you still belong with me , but ..

2009-09-30T15:42:00.004+08:00

!@#$%^&*!@#$%^&!@#$%^&*!@#$%!!!!!!!! what happen to me ? whats wrong with me !!! im so jealous ! really im so jealous ! why can't get rid of you from my brain .what a useless brain . im so stupid to cry just now ! but i can help it , really it hurts !! i must try control myself , maybe what shunda and lingsheng said might be true . i shld stop all this . i cannot keep on thinking of him . is he worth it ? come on sakinah ! im really tired of crying everytime . idk what to do now , help:'(

Ang shun da , who never fails to comfort me ,and make me smile , and make me feel safe thanks
neo ling sheng , who never fails to make me laugh , make me smile and make me feel safe too . thanks
tina , who claims that she is not good at consoling but actually she is . she makes me smile . thanks
syahirah , who always good at consoling me , advice me and everything thanks .
shamira , despite of knowing whats happening , she will never fail to cheer me up . never fail . thanks
cheryl , who keeps encouraging and supporting me . thanks
syamel , who never stop asking whether im okay or not . so sweet of you
shafiq , who keep staring at me but nvr say anything , i can feel the concerness . thx
pek weilun who keep asking me to relax . :D
and those TWO GIRLS who keep staring at me ! "thanks uh !"
i have a lots of good friends :D

they are always with me when i need them :)
and to syahirah , relax okay . (insertname) confirm will regret !

2009-09-28T18:12:00.002+08:00

I always needed time on my own . I never thought I'd need you there when I cried . And the days feel like years when I'm alone . When you walk away I count the steps you take . Do you see how much I want you . When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you . When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too . When you're gone the words I need to hear To always get me through the day . And make it ok . I miss you . I've never felt this way before . Everything that I do, reminds me of you , I love the things you do we were made for each other . Out here forever . All I ever wanted was for you to know . Everything I do I give my heart and soul . I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me .

p/s copyrighted from avril lavigne , when you're gone

you are nothing compared to them !

2009-09-28T16:58:00.004+08:00

bbq chalet on 19/20/21 october ,

i dont understand why ppl keep changing minds about going and not going , do you know that this may be our last year all together .
why you dont want go ? because she never go uh ? and the rest is like if one ppl never go then the rest also dont want go . like wtfxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ! forget it , i really hope that you all will come !

yesterday , had an open house , it was damn tiring lah . around 3 plus , shakir , fadhila , suhaimi , and farris came , the they ate , talk shakir carried my cat , den den around 4 they left . around 5 plus , tina and jason came , i tought them eat something which they never eat that thing before. they ate that quite a lot , and they eat cakes everything , they stayed up till nearly 8 and they went home , around 7 syamel , zul , hakim , shafiq , syazwan , rayyan , haziq , asshiddiq came to my house , and theyso making noise but its fun . they all very funny . den we took a picture

they all very handsome :D and hakim is hiding behind haziq haha!

later i post again doing math practice

overslept

2009-09-25T14:33:00.004+08:00

today i overslept , i want to go to school leh ! i woke up around 7.45 am . my mum thought i woke up and went to school already . den i saw tina msg and call , sorry . my phone was silent so do my alarm . but had a quite a good rest today i woke up at 1.30 . today i'm going to house visiting , confirm is until morning .

im very happy because tmrw im going to his house for hari raya visiting , omg omg omg !! i hope he's there , i know he will be there waiting for me . hahah , okay lah im going to study now , been long time since i do revision at home .

bye

note : pls lah im trying my best

everything new

2009-09-24T17:43:00.005+08:00

it has been one month plus since i blog , due to the corruption .
well the previous post is kind of about what i have been feeling , so now i'm clearing off everything .if i say i dont love him anymore and i know most of you all will say that i'm lying . so yah , you know right . i've been kind of feeling crazy and retarded everyday ! so now , i decided to try to clear you off from my heart although i know its hard , because everyday see you in school , with (insertname) makes me jealous and keep thinking the negative things . its not worth it , i get jealous over a small thing , and make it big in my heart . you dont know that almost everyday i cried in my heart to see you with (insertname) talk . it really hurts me . although i've said many times i ask you to stop talking to her . i dont know what happen between the both of you , and most importantly it is none of my business . it hurts because my heart bleeds , It's going to hurt when it heals too . and i know time will heal it . Thought I couldn't live without you because i love you , but still i'm going to smile because i deserve too . Since there's no more you and me . This time I let you go so I can be free from burning of hearts . And Live my life how it should be . No matter how hard it is, I will be fine without you . Yes I Will . i dont know whether you still love me , if you do still , pls im letting you to forget me , if not , great and goodluck then . i just want to tell you something to you all that
for the very first time i'm with him , my heart melts to the ground . because i found something true . and everyone thought im going crazy . But they don't know the truth . but it didnt last . nvm nvm :D i'm closing my chapter now and opening the new one . anyway Nlevel are few days away i shouldnt be thinking about all this and in fact i shouldnt be even blogging .

anyway now i will stop with the emo emo thing .

i want to thank
first of all ,
1) Ang Shun Da my beloved bulldog ! haha for always be there for me in times in need , never fail to be there . always makes me laugh although its lame haha , you cheeered me up , you say im your bestfren , and im really happy , that you call me that . i dont know how to describe you lah , you have all the bestfriend features . just that i hate you because you like to pull my hair :@ ! haha but you're great really great !! you be my spy ! haha but stop all that okay ? i dont need all that already . you are very nice person , you stop you games just to talk to me or try to pause or what ? you skype with me , lame jokes with me . and i always always wil be there for you when you need someone to talk with or whatever lah , i promise !

2) Chen Li Ling , Tina Tan Li Ling , you too have been always be there for me . you cheered me up , you make me smile , you help me a lot , really , i'm lucky to have a friend like you , you are best , great and everything . i also promise that i will always be there for you when you need someone .

3) syahirah , always make me smile also , you cheered me up . you are very kind . you always there for me , you will always say "aww mann !!" when i never come school . i will always be there for you !

4) Neo Ling Sheng ! haha you too ! i never forgotten you , you are also always there . !!!!!!!!! never fail !! i love you ! i mean as a friend that loves a friend !

5) shamira , who never never never never fail to make jokes , fun and everything , you are great !!!!!

6) ying ying , who msg me ask whether i;m okay or not . thank darling . you also always there for me . you such a nice girl really . no lying . msg me if you need someone to talk to and i promise i will be there for you !

7) vivien who always encourage me and give me supports
8) cheryl , same like vivien
9) yong fa , who always makes me laugh , always make my day , talk to me in msn , jokes everything , help me with many things !! thanks bugs bunny !

10 ) hakim , who nowadays msg me , it is nice of you :D
11) zulhelmi , who are my kind of close friend
12) isaac , who always fight with me in class , haha comfort me !! thanks
and lastly not forget
13) SYAMEL !!!!!!!!!!!!!! who cares for me , and accompany me , msg me and everything ! thanks i love you very much bestfriend :D !!!

thank you friends :D

okay i think thats it for now , im going to revise bio !
so bye !

2009-08-16T13:50:00.001+08:00

somehow i think you are the only i always think of
i really made the wrong decision , because i was careless
no one is perfect.
no one knows what i have been thinking , or infact i dont know
what ive been thinking all this while , i admit i still love him
and i really love him , but my life gotta move on
although im not asking for anything now , i just feel that
i need atleast someone to know how i've been feeling all this
while . tomorrow it is 17 again ! and im gonna cry tonight . or
rather im crying now . whats wrong with me ? why i keep doing the
old same mistake again . although he broke my heart more than two times
but i still sense somehow he didnt realised that . im such a failure !
i feel so miserable now . teribbly miserably !!!!!!!! i always waited
for something , but somehow when it comes i purpose let it go .
i dont know whether this opportunity will come again or not , or maybe i
dont know whether i will still let it go again or not . maybe i probably
shouldnt say all this , nevertheless at times i get tensed easily
when i think about relationship we used to have . its great , awesome ,
amazing but unfortunately we lost it , its no possible for me not
to care about you anymore . the loved we shared , seems to go nowhere .
i cant sleep at night (like real) . i dont know why i still love you
even though it hurts . I've got this burning yearning , the Feeling inside me
Ohh too and so deep inside me. And it hurts so bad . You came into my heart
So tenderly. With a burning love . That stings like a bee
And now that I feel like surrender it is so helplessley lah !!!!!!!!!!
excuse me for feelng like this . this moment is critical and might be im the
only one , myself who feeling it .

end this by saying i still love vincent .
and i know this can change nothing !
and im not expecting anything

2009-07-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

happy 4th months annivesary to us :)))

H1N1 millions thanks !

2009-07-17T15:02:00.004+08:00

i'm home :)))
this is those who text and called me
1: firstly i would like to thank MY DEAREST MILEY CYRUS(syahirah) , who always there
for in time of need , never fail to make me feel protected . she bored without me , im
bored without her , we bored without each other , not forgeting shamira
jolie ,who always be the fire for the candle as she always brighten up the day . you
care , your concern , thanks MILEY !! and i miss you !!

2: Tina is the first person to say "get well soon " to me . she gave me informations ,
courage to be strong , she treated me like a kid and she buying me CARAMEL CORN !!
haha YAY !!
I love her !! haha not because of caramel corn , haha !! she never fail to make me feel
like a mum to her haha :DD thanks tina , and i miss you !!

3: Syamel , who every single time never tired of messaging me , make me feel
accompanied , although his bill high but he said nvm , how sweet ! thanks syamel , you're
the best boyfriend i ever had ! :))))

4. Angelina jolie and brad pitt , the holywood stars , thanks for the care and concern . i love
you two !!

5. ying ying , dont sad !! i miss you too ! thanks for all this while for the guidance , concern ,
care , and everything . i love you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! meeet up
soon !!

6. vivien , thanks for the wish :)))))))))) !!! i love you too !!

7. joe jonas , who nvr fail to make me laugh , thanks ex - boyfriend ! haha . btw this
rhymes !
From all your besties and your lovely fans. from the jo bros and big rob. from miley to the
hollywood stars jolie and brad. from selena and rico . hahaha ! thanks joe !!

8. lingsheng , who always there for me , understand my needs , moral support is given , nvr fail to make laughs , thanks for everything . you always be my ............ !! ( you know , i know , we know :)) )

and to those who msg me and talked on the phone

- vincent
- shun da
- arina
- amira
- hidayah
- emily
- shazlina
- wei lun
- yong fa
- wei cheng
- kui jun
- liping
- naziela
- isaac
- roy
- syazwan
those who talk to me on the phone
- mirrah

not forgetting , PRABA who cares for me . thanks for everything
and my lovely HADI ! thanks for the .... ! and I MISS YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha

lastly ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG SHUN DA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAITED FOR YOUR CALL AND MSG , BUT NOTHING I RECEIVED FROM YOU ! IM SOOOOO DISAPPOINTED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU HAVENT CHANGE .

2009-07-09T19:31:00.003+08:00

tears been dropping flooding my laptop , i dont know why , i feel like im still loving you . even i dont feel the love from you . im not obsessive and crazy . i just cant get over this . thanks for the ppls who are always there for me , Miley , Angelina Jolie , Ling sheng and Shun da . without them i am slowly dying . i wish i could get over all this ! yes i know i can ! now i won't ask anything from you anymore .

goodbye love !

its not easy saying all this , but i have to . i hoping you would stop me from doing this ! and im waiting

i just want your attention !

2009-07-09T17:56:00.003+08:00

whats wrong with taking your phone ? it's childish and YES ! but this stupid childish thing , i just want YOUR attention ! i want YOUR attention you freaking ... !i hate you ! think lah ! do you ever come to me and talk to me in class without anyone or even me asking you to ! do you ever did that ? not did that DO that ! by doing that is the only way for you to talk to me , laugh with me ,but it's always im the one who always come and talk to you and sit with you ! i hate you !:'( ! first few months i try to wait for you to change , but you didnt ! but i dont want tell you , i dont want you to think that im not happy with you . i just keep quiet . when i walk pass you , you didnt even say "hi " or even :D ! seems like im invisible . you saw me but its like you didnt see me at all . WTH ! whatever lah i cant be bothered anymore , i really am tired . really .

i trying to forget all this , and even you ( but i know i cant )
:'(

strange

2009-07-05T20:52:00.002+08:00

it strange to think the problem they are facing , and tell you what , im so delighted :D !! knowing this is soo cruel of me to think like that , but for how long im going to face them behaving like that ! I AM SO JEALOUS ! seriously . when they are back to normal , everything in my world got screwed up ! i dont know why im behaving like this , but i dont know ! i dont know !! they dont care but i care ! they dont know , but i know ! they dont feel , but i feel , they dont realised , i realised long time ago ! the didnt notice , but i keep noticing ! when was the last time you talked to me ? hmm , 4 mths ago ? when you ask what's wrong with me ,i freaked out , i stu-stu-stuttered, i looked down , i couldnt breathe , and i couldnt answer , SPEECHLESS !! i dont know whats on their mind ! im not mind reader but i'm reading the sign .

i'll update my link soon ! so fana and emily wait uh !

family gathering :D

2009-06-28T19:00:00.003+08:00

today had family gathering ,where my mother's siblings , my grandma all come my house . eat durian ! (eww) but i ate quite a lot . 13 PCS durian . the nicest i ever taste . my father bought it in malaysia . school starts tomorrow which mean no more enjoy for me . i had to face two things which i cant elaborate here . nevermind , just see what going to happen tomorrow . i hate to face it , but sooner or later i have to face it also . so better face it now kan ? ... tomorrow after school im going to hang out with somebody special from far :D yay ! finally get to meet her/him !

i know you miss me but i doubt i miss you :( sorry !

im enjoying myself !

2009-06-27T20:56:00.002+08:00

i'm enjoying myself before school starts ! this few days been keeping myself busy with shopping , slacking , VISITING MY RELATIVE ! , went to the zoo . i shopped at OG , BUGIS , QUEENSWAY , PENINSULA , FUNAN , RAFFLES , SIM LIM . let start with OG , did window shopping there , but my mum bought a $200 bonia bag , $98 bonia wallet . BUGIS , just window shop . QUEENSWAY , accompany my sis to find shoe but all not to her liking . PENINSULA , buy 4 bags ( 3 mine , 1 sis ) ,7 jeans ( 2 mine , 2 sis , 2 mum , 1 dad ), 1 t shirt (dad ) , 2 tights (one mine , one sis) . FUNAN , for pastamania . Raffles to eat . SIM LIM , THE SIMS 3 :D . Daddy said that this month i overspent , lets count together , 3 bags $32 + 2 jeans $54 + tights $5 + the sims 3 $54 + ZOO $25 + one day i asked for $10 if 20 days is $200 + hair $30 = $400 . hmm okay lah . i thought 500 ++ hehe :D not really alot compared to my sister . but whatever it is , im leading a happy moment now . so nothing can spoil it :DDD okay enough about this okay bye ! im chatting with someone now so busy lah !

my heart pain seeing you never chane :(

2009-06-24T13:51:00.004+08:00

not feeling well , sick seh :) !! haha . forget everything for a while and enjoy the last bit of holidays before school officially starts ! i want school hols to extend ! today going town with my dad , sis and mum ! gonna buy a lot of things :D not forgetting the sims 3 :D feel good to forget everything at the moment where later a bunch of err ?? coming into my head ! right now is really the best time :D so kite enjoy !!

i changed , because you didnt !

2009-06-21T12:10:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry but i had no choice ! :'(
i hope you understand . if you think you're not happy , i'll let you decide :(

i miss you !

2009-06-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

i damn miss vincent png !

2009-06-18T18:02:00.003+08:00

this few days not been feeling so well , i dont know just whats wrong with me . i love to be alone , i prefer to talk alone , i love to keep everything to myself , i prefer to go out . IM SICK !! because of a thing it spreads . I WANT TO STOP EVERYTHING !! I WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING !!

pls dont ask what happen to me !

2009-06-16T21:54:00.002+08:00

few hours more to go ! weee !!!

16/06/09 9.52pm ! faster faster faster !!!

haha !

today accompany mum go check up , which tmrw will be my turn . err den went out and everything . reached home sleep !! which i think he expected it . haha ! well when i sign in my msn just now something unexpected happen to appear on my screen , speechless . dont know what to text .sorry ya ! i know you may be waiting for my msg , but you dont understand . nvm . today suppose to go out with the girls but postpones it due to some reasons . especially syahirah ! hahaha ! sorry girl ! but glad it was postponed rather than cancel ! he sleeps already ! walao ! i hope he msg me early in the morning wishing :)

this few days , hais , no one knows what i have been thinking !

2009-06-12T20:58:00.000+08:00

i want to cry !
i didnt go pussycat dolls concert !!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIEN GOH !!!

2009-06-11T18:17:00.003+08:00

monday

went to hci thing ! err den something where flat told arina something i was damn shocked , but i know no one to blame , but im angry at something/someone which i cant eloborate it here due to sensitiveness ! both of them cried ! me and shamira were like dont know what to do . i feel like saying everything here but scared feelings might be hurt so i shuddup !!!

tuesday

absent from hci thing . went to chalet at pasir ris downtown east costa sand resort . go escape theme park , and it was like err almost all for children below 12 the game ! but really had fun with my uncle , aunt , cousins ( dada , izzan , ain , amir , mirza ) and my sister . we left the park at 8.10 they are closing . it was very dark because they off everything . oh ya the haunted was damn damn scary , we went inside and see alot of ghost ( fake one la ) den really scary . they keep moving touched our leg . me my sister and my uncle went inside first . we were like keep screaming dont where to head . its very very dark . my sister go hit the wall hahah ! i was infront i just follow where my leg go ! haha . the best part was when my uncle was left behind den suddenly got ppl grab mine and my sister's hand . my sister non stop screaming den we heard " its me lah ! " lol my uncle leh we were laughing and hoping to get out from the haunted house . the smell was eww ! den take very long to get out . finally we saw exit , we go out like shout and laugh den ppl look at us like one kind ! damn paiseh lahh !! den 8 plus reach chalet was damn starving !! we ate and headed to EXPLORER KID ! another bucks flying :) haha ! den want to go home but my sister sleep there :( i got school the next day so go home lo !

wednesday

dont really feel like going school because i was tired . but i miss him , dats why i went to school . had the hci thing . den asked him to send me home . idk it was my first time asking him to send me home usually we just walked and suddenly reach my block . okay when we walking den reached my block like err hard to let him go LAH !! but haha ! whatever ! den packed everything stuff . aunt fetch den went chalet again . eat first den go wild wild wet. me and my sister apply sunblock and like the whole body and face until our face really full of cream but we dont care ! we are tan enough ! haha this tima round went with uncle again aunt again cousins ( kak nora , ain , mirza and amir) and my sister . the weather was not hot at all . den we went foam bath uh i think . fun sia !! haha lazy to elaborate what happen there . den around 6 plus was starving because we had played for like 6 hours ! den eat kfc . i managed to finish 2 BIG chicken ! i cant believed ! nowadays im always hungry ! den 7 www closed den exit went to this shop outside www saw this slipper my sister and me had been craving all this while bought it and off to chalet again . den my uncle fetched me . reach home at 9 plus i slept . so tired ! dream !

today

woke up at 645 . den bathed everything was lazy to go school . but still the same reason YOU SHOULD KNOW WHY ! haha ! at 7 flat msged me and told something i was oh dear poor thing ! hahah den fetched her at bustop . went to school together . hci thing . den plan for vivien birthdayat last went to swenses to eat . err shun da and vincent paid everything ! haha ! bad sia me !! we ate den full den went home with vincent . reached home feed my babies den sleep . dreamt . den woke up now blogging ! oh ya IM HUNGRY !!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIEN !

I LOVE YOUUU !!!!! THANKS FOR THE PAIR OF EARS YOU ALWAYS LEND IT TO ME :) I WONT FORGET THAT ! MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE ! YOU ALWAYS KNOW IM THERE FOR YOU EVERYTIME !

LOVE SAKINAH !

2009-06-04T20:48:00.002+08:00

today borrrring ! the only best part was , err walking home with vincent :)
haha ! well , 2 days i been not been sleeping early , because of the two new
irritating cats haha ! they keep disturbing me ! im not going to school tmrw !
lazy and tired !
bye la !

2009-06-02T20:44:00.001+08:00

I GOT 4 CATS NOW !

I VERY HAPPY ! ONE FOR MYSELF , ONE MY SISTER , MY DAD , MY MUM ! ALL HAVE ONE ! SO ITS FAIR AND SQUARE !
HAHA

2009-06-01T19:09:00.001+08:00

my mother just had a miscarriage :'( . it was a great blow to my sister
as she wanted baby so much for very long long long time already !
im not really sad . kalau tuhan da takdir kan untuk jadi mcm gini , kita
harus terima dengan ikhlas , ade hikmah di sebalik ape yang terjadi .
Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku ,
apakah ini satu cobaan atau dugaan untuk kami ya allah ?
apakah yang ingin kamu tunjukkan ya Allah ? ampunkan la
segale dosa ibuku ya Allah , apakan ini satu cobaan hidup untuk
ibuku ya Allah , ringankan lah dugaan yang ingin kau berikan
kepadanya Ya Allah . Kurniakan lah ibuku satu lagi zuriat Ya Allah .
Kau yang maha mendengar , maha memahami semua hamba nya
Kabulkan permintaanku ini Ya Allah . Lindungi la ibuku Ya Allah .
kerana kau lah yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang .
Amin .

:'( !

2009-05-31T18:49:00.002+08:00

im bored to death !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he played mahjong he forget me leh ! haha ! was actually angry but at last
didnt ! because feels like too pampered ! so NO ! haha , he said he won $40
so make sure he pays for everything tmrw ! haha ! ill make sure theres
not even a cent in my wallet ! haha . well facebook , soooo funny lah yong fa
and wei cheng ! im bored bored bored bored ! while now is having fun ! okay
stop it ! BYE !

2009-05-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

went to peninsula to buy mum's thing , den headed to bugis
bought alot of dresses , tshirts . spent like 89+38+30 = $157
den went to eat . otw home in the cab i slept . reached home
around 10 plus , now online and blogging . ask yf for video
in blog thing . oh ya just now he hacked my blog ! haha ! he
helped me with blog :) thanks yong fa ! anyone can just ask
him anything :) he will find solution for it ! haha right yf ? lol !
i quarrel with my father :)
the story goes like this
29/05/09 , 0710hrs . in the car , otw to school
i open the car door
dad : can you please clean the sit behind and put my clothes behind
me : ohh
dad : can you pls put nicely , dont just throw everything behind (in harsh tone/angry/loud tone)
me : relax uh ! cannnot say nicely uh ? i also nvr throw right ?!
dad : whats wrong with you ?
me : nothing wrong with me ! ask yourself la !
i banged the door ! and listen to my ipod !

haha just now also something had happen , similar to what happen yesterday

p/s :"The best proof of love is trust."

im a cat lover :) you are ?

2009-05-30T14:04:00.003+08:00

i asked mama whether can i have one more cat :)
she said "NO!" two cannot take care want to take
three uh ? den i was like " alah ! "

haha!

starts of school holiday !

2009-05-29T22:55:00.008+08:00

initially my plan was not to make this blog alive anymore
but after someone threw my book away , i felt that writing
in book is not safe anymore for me ! but i cant be possibly
write everything here right ! my midyr result is so
satisfying , i got 15 points leh ! not like someone fail math
but pass ss and act big already ! haha ! kidding !
English : 52/100
Math : 62/100
Malay : 71/100
Science : 65/100
Poa : 88/100
Humanities : 45/100
but i will do more better for prelim and nlevel ! its 2304 hrs now !
This month is not a good one ! many things happen ! so i want june fast!!

i want this thing to happen in the month of june
- PLay Pool again !
- Play basketball with vincent !
- work and get money !
oh ya ! im soo looking forward to 17 june ! haha , but too bad lo the bet between me
and isaac is already off ! haha . okay gtg ! want to chat with him !

p/s: all of us have the desire for love !

Digital Clock

2009-04-26T00:20:00.001+08:00

Get your own Digital Clock

2009-04-13T19:01:00.002+08:00

my conversation with my sister ! you know what we sms each other !! haha

sister : kak ! (sis)
me : what ?
sister : what it feels like when your bf kiss you ?
me : why you ask ?
sister : just ask , because my bf ask whether he can kiss me or not ?
(i laughed !)
me : ohmygod ! then what you said ? you want to kiss uh ?
sister : idk ! im asking you !
me: just kiss lo !!
sister : really ? you and your bf leh ?
me : dont kepo lah !
sister : haha i know ! he nvr kiss rite ?
me : not now lah !! we still young eh ! and somemore kiss for what ? i dont think kiss is necessary lah !
sister : haha ! and somemore he wants to hold my hand sia !
me : good for you
sister : he hold your hand before ?
me : why you want to know ?
sister : tell lahh !!
me : hold or nvr hold make any difference meh ?
sister : GOT ! he haven hold your hand uh ?
me : nope
sister : wah !!
me : what wah ?
sister : he nvr hold your hand ! he nvr ask ?
me : never ! okay whatever !
sister : jealous pe ?
me : no !
sister : just say it !
me : i said no !
sister : i can read what you want !
me : okay so ?!
sister : hahaha ! good luck uh sis !! your one month coming rite ?
me : ya this coming friday
sister : okay okay , hope he got alot of suprises for you !
me : haha !!
sister : bye kak !
me : im otw home and you too ! so are we meeting each other at home later ?
sister : sarcastic !

haha , so thats the conversation between me and my sister ! lol ,

trouble

2009-04-08T19:10:00.002+08:00

today was syf and it was like finally , everything done , oh no ! wait not done ! speech day coming laaaa !
thought we could step down , idk ?! its like im the only one who like waiting for all the seniors to step down. haha i know someone hates it soo much , but sorry im just love to be sarcastic to you , and i really cant wait for you to step down , oh wrong ! not only you BOTH of you ! hahah i think not only me waiting , got a few seniors waiting ! haha im very bad ! okay now i really hate ANNA CHUA ! haha clear enough ? readers dont tell ppl ! haha shh ! i shall not reveal what she had done .. but maybe sooon ! but i nvr say i nvr had done anything wrong towards her , got leh ! haha . just now at catholic junior college , i was really nervous , i do the lighting ,
haha but okay , got one scene i wrong lights leh ! but my very smart brain told me to fade it slowly and change to a new submaster lights ! hahe genius ;) but got this one person her face serious , pathetic seh , not only me even teachers said that haha , nvmlah syf over alrd , den after we performed we watched other school performances , hua yi sec very good leh except their lighting , they anyhow change one loh ! and the light is not very bright , cannot even see their faces loh ! den i get bored i sleep , not really sleep i think half sleep coz i can still hear their voice , den got this one part is like love scene , so sweet leh . otw home , aslina , vivien and i saw this twin girl from our school , one of the stead with one guy , the boy and girl at first walk den when reached bukit panjang primary school they hold hand sia ! walao ! when it going to ?? ahh nvm ! forget it ! nowadays i keep seeing couples hold hand leh ! haha hahahaha hahaha ! okay lah actually still got alot to share but i very tired :) bye vincent ! haha :D bye

conversation

2009-03-29T20:30:00.003+08:00

read the conversation me and someone

someone : hei sakinah !

me : what lah ?

someone : wah ! action siia !!

me : where got ! you dont anyhow lah !

someone : noww got boifreind than action siia !!

me : boyfriend ? how you know i got boyfriend ?

someone : ii know laa ! now eu different lei

me : different ?

someone : now eu more cheerful

me : haha lol !

someone : iis eurr boifren handsome ?

me : you want to know for what ?

someone : walaoo !! handsome or not ?

me : ya ! handsome than you ! much better than you jerk !

someone : eu stiil angry at me ?

me : no

someone : are eu stiil angri ?

me :i said no means no lah !

someone : ok relax ! im sorri if i used to scold eu or whatsoever !

me : ohh

someone : so eurr boifren ? how old ? what skool ?

me : same school , class , im 50 days older than him

someone : ok , i jealous of eu

me : okay good ! okay lah i dont want to talk to you anymore , talk to my boyfriend more fun , more sweet . and somemore pls delete my picture in your blog im no longer your ... !! if you still .... me whatever ! what i know i love my boyfriend very very very much ! and i want to appreciate him ! bye !

then i blocked him ! haha .

okay enough of this jerk ! well i just reached home , finally 90% of drama's syf props is DONE ! Okay just now in class i sit with vincent , actually i got alot of things to talk to him one eh !
den like suddenly my mind blank . haha ! den oral , my examiner is ms shakila, den whenever i want to talk she talked , like wth ! haha den she like keep "hmm " "hmm " just now i see girls fighht like mine and hers haha ! btw yesterday i had a quarell with my mum , walao !! atfirst she said
"can you please cleanup your room ?"
den i said
"okay !"
mum : " now , stop using comp ! vincent vincent vincent ! who vincent ?
den i was like "oh dear , she knows !! "
den i just ignored and clean my room ! i think she knows already , so no point of hiding !
walao ! i still cant forget the dream , i mean the worse dream ever ! i dreamt that i have to leave vincent , then i like err cried , he cried to its like evryones crying ! haha .

shamira asked vincent whether he remembered our date , den he remembered ! but too bad i remember the time too leh ! haha . okay lah stop abt him , i week more to syf ! den i can go back home early already . its like everyday i go back at 5 , 6 ! wah penat ! hais , now its like ms kwok knows every secret of mine ! haha she is someone who i personally say that she is a good teacher and fren too ! its like everyday we will contact each other than talk about our personal thing lah . haha . wah idk that this post going to be a long one ! haha
okay lah i stop here , now im waiting for him to online .

my darling's birthday

2009-03-22T17:24:00.002+08:00

happy birthday vincent :)

Sakinah always love you leh !

BIG PROBLEM

2009-03-20T18:07:00.003+08:00

my own family member do this to me ! i dont feel safe at home ! i hope this is just my imagination . really it is so scary , but i dont think he is the type lah . i shouldnt had went home earlier , regret . DD: i must think postive , but still i dont feel safe , i need you

today

2009-03-19T15:01:00.002+08:00

today got drama but i nvr go leh ! got three reason , first my mum angry because everyday
i go school go back sleep den never eat den my room damn messy which this week is the 10th time she asked me to clean my room , and i will answer " alah mama , our house still renovating what ! finish renovate then i clean my room ," obviously in malay lah . but now the renovation finish already so fast seh ! now i have to clean my room but i keep delaying . because everyday i got school and i will use the excuse im tired , got alot of hw , still need to go school tmrw . the second reason is that vincent , today he nvr go school then i got no mood to go school like that . the third reason is that i very lazy and tired :DD today i chatted with "someone" for so long
i listen to his problems he listen to mine :DD homework masih belum habis seh , mcm nak giler seh buat homework !

okay back to homework again

2009-03-16T15:36:00.005+08:00

march holiday :(

i dont think im going to enjoy my holiday ! i dont know how to express my feelings .

i miss him soo much , only god knows how big is my miss

to him ! its like aiya , i keep thinking about him seh !

to vincent png wei jie :

Everything I need is right here by my side.And I know everything about youI don't wanna live without you.I'm only up when your not down.Don't wanna fly if your'e still on the ground.It's like no matter what I do.Well you drive me crazy half the time;the other half im only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.And I'm only me when I'm with you.When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.Only you can tell.To hear your voice again Sometimes I want to call you.Sometimes I just want to hide, cause it's you I miss. And it's so hard to say goodbye When it comes to stupid march holiday :( If I had just one more day to holiday . I would tell you how much That I've missed you since the holiday . idk ! only you yourself know i fall in love with you .

and sometimes i just cant figure it out what you thinking

still i dont get it ! sometimes i hint you were pretending to not understand or you really dont know that i was hinting . and most importantly i just love the way you are now :) i'll teach you !

don't stop msg me , because i believe there will no ending for us . i love you more than you love me .

2009-03-01T17:39:00.002+08:00

Dearest Tina Tan Li Ling,

I wish for the sun to shine upon you

Everyday of your precious life

But most of all I wish you love and

happiness i a world without strife

I wish you all the best in everything

you do in the future like your studies,

relationship with everyone including

me and yeah no regret in the future

I wish you free from any problems

if there one , me, you and maybe all

of us will go through it with you

you are not alone in this world

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TINA !

i post this specially for you not to payback but is the part 1 of your present !

part 2 will be given when i see you in school :) happy birthday , hope this year

is better than the previous year , and yeah study hard for nlevel . i want you to go

sec 5 ! so goood luck

much love

sakinah mama !

2009-02-28T14:16:00.002+08:00

yes he likes me ! i like him ! but i dont love him and he dont love me
today's post is just about him ! i shall not reveal the name first paiseh uh !
and yeah thx to praba and arina :) i love you too much much much
haha , im so freaking happy lahh yesterday ! so lets cheer
hip hip hooray
hip hip hooray!
hahahaLOL!
but why he never talk to me uh ? hais haha . okay lah next is diary-ing !

i still hate you !

2009-02-21T22:04:00.004+08:00

what would you feel if someone who close to you
and ask your pet to go and die ? and your pet
is everything to you ! how could he said that to me !
think i didnt take it to heart ?!i knoww it happened
end of january so today den i realise
that i cant keep it in my heart anymore so i decided
to blog about it ! should i type your name BIG BIG here ?
you want ?? and btw you cant lie anymore because
there's mouth who keep telling me about you !
you're such a LIAR ! okay enough about him .

die

2009-02-21T18:13:00.001+08:00

to someone who asked my kitten to go die !
i hope you die first okayy ?? bloody asshole !

2009-02-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

update soon :)

KFC delivery

2009-02-09T21:01:00.003+08:00

haha shafiq jealous uh because i just ate FATS ! haha , alamak
i scared i gain weight lahh , its good already i lost 4 kg !
haha , i must try ! tmrw i musnt eat ! i must control myself ! LOL
just now at school talk to praba alot , he told me alot of stuffs ,
den i was like "omg really ?" got one part when praba told me
something i was like "omg !" im so like it lohhh !! and just now
also shazlina told me something and i was like cannot believe it
and i called her 3 times but no one answer it , so yeah later lahh
so now here blogging , i still hate that person so much , and i
dont know why , he still didnt aware he telling the whole world what happen
*angry* . just now aslina said something about my hair , omg i must get rid of it
fast !!! ohohoho !! and yeah i'm booked for valentines day ! but i'm working :(
soo goodbye for now :D
much love

im thinking what to post

2009-02-06T21:33:00.003+08:00

just now i read tina's blog then i realised
that she post a post just for me leh ! i was
damn touched ! err just now vivi-en and
cheryl come my house and slack till
8 pluss ! den i eat ! den i chat with someone
sadded ! oh my , what had happen ? why
must this happen i feel guilty for two
people who trust me so much ! but
you see im here bing neutral so yeah
what should i do ? im helping both of
them but what if both of them had the
wrong impression of me leh how ???
to someone : there's no need for you
to tell the public what had happen to us
okay ??

btw i love tara

i'll end with > god bless me !

oi !

2009-02-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

just finish typin 12 pages drama script
wa my hand mcm nak pecah/patah seh !
penat lah ! well tadi ader drama fun !
haha den straight home terus type
drama script, now im sitting at my bed
waiting for me to fall asleep
haha dah lahh ! update later okay ?!

bye for now
sakinah

celebrated

2009-02-02T20:05:00.004+08:00

yesterday celebrate kak siti . my dad
and my birthday , we ate kat restaurant
and we order alot if thing , my dad paid
everything , its $186.30 haha i can
remember , we ordered crabs , prawns ,
squids , big fishes , vegetable , tom yam ,
a lot lahh ! i cant remember !
presents
my sis and dad give me latest ipod nano !!
haha i was damn happy lahh ! i think it cost
250 ? my mum gave me $116 nike watch !
yeah !! my grandma , aunts gave me alot
of thing worth of $150 ! hahah best best !
my aunt lagi satu kasi $50 ! guess what ?
this month i loaded seh ! hahahah !
today my dad nyer birthday i sponsor
$100 , he wants to buy nike shoe .
we also just now suprised him by
giving ice cream swensen's cake !
haha he was damn happy lah just now !
me and dad blow the candles together .
tmrw going school ! yeah ! miss my
babes so much !

okay love !

my day

2009-02-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To ME !!!!

love myself !

i just dont know what i'm thinking

2009-01-31T08:43:00.002+08:00

blog under maintenance still ,
actually i'm kind of scared of
typing post in my blog as i
think this is not the safest place
afterall .
to syazwan : i know i may be
kind a sensitive but i'm damn
disappointed , serious ! i'm
sorry if i hurt your feelings !
but to me it doesnt make sense
on what you had post in your blog.
okay small matter whatever !
i really love that you are my
bestfren , but i thought you would
know me ! how could you do this to me ??

ying ying , arina and shazlina
thanks for always be there for
me when i needed you
and i promise i'll always be there
for you wherever you need a
listening pair of ear , shoulder
and whatever it is !!

and to someone that i bingit so
much , i know you can read my blog
and this phrase is for you
"LIKE I GIVE A SHIT"

bye

2009-01-13T19:54:00.002+08:00

finally updated !
oh man !
i got feelings , i got feelings idiot ! i got feelings ! i got feelings ! damn it !
why this is happening to me , why i always see something that i dont wish
to see ! ahh ! everything ruin my happyness ! shut up lahh bitch !!!

2009-01-01T01:03:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year !
3 more years !

miss the cold whether !

2008-12-11T18:30:00.003+08:00

at singapore changi airport !

reach there at 8 plus , den when for dinner
at popeye ! den gather around at 9
sit in between ayah (dad) and mama , hug them
lots and lots of time , haha
den check in at 10 plus , boarding at 11
den in to the plane singapore airline uh !
SQ 231 ! hahah sit in between shehnaz
and syamel , plane take off at 12 !
wah fun tau . den took lots of photos !
7 hrs flight !

day 1

reach sydney at 10 am , which in s'pore is 7 am
den off to lunch , ate pizza , the only halal stall
nice tau ! den off to Sydney Opera house !
we went to see the seven or eight different
theatre den off to the Art Gallery Of
New South Wales ! there's different painting
and i find it interesting !
then went to the hotel ! its like not what i expected
so nice eh the hotel ! im the room ic ! i share room with
arina , aisyah and shehnaz
i share bed with aryna !
but unfortunately ! all of us stuck in one bed lol !
haha my badan sakit seh , shehnaz lah !
she put one pillow beside her , which take space !
haha .

day 2

i woke up at 5 , den bathe ,
den off to blue mountain ! yay ! nice sia !
we walk ard the mountain , it has a very nice
scenery , then we took alot of picture !
lucky to be in mdm fatimah's group !
haha took alot of pic , den we had a pure
pain by rock , we paint our face haha
den went to the seven sister , got this
irritated black version of santa claus go
and purposely touch my ears ! its so annoying !
all of us took picture with him ! haha fun sia
lol !

day 3

went for breakfast , then went to the rocks !
then shopping at the flee market ! took
alot of picture , den went to MAnly beach !
my grp : wei ming , salihin , aryna and noel !
den we had a manly race , den 1 hour 45 min
for shopping which me and arina had no mood
coz we are damn tired super super tired lah !
den went to take the ferry to circular quay !
den took alot of photos with ms roz and mdm
fatimah ! we had our hair all over the place !
haha ! den off to hotel , dinner at chinese restaurant
which the foood damn lot lah , cannot finish it
den mdm fatimah n ms roz can still sleep at
the restaurant , yeah they damn tired can see !
den went to hotel had a long briefing , den slept at 12 plus

day 4

we went to starfield girls high school ! it was like the
ever first time all of us wear school uniform
and all of us look so neat , den we perform stomp ,
i got intro myself to a very beautiful girl ,
and we exchange email ! she has facebook
and friendster . den went to the drama workshop
everybody seems like enjoying ourself , this is the
fun workshop ever ! den went to hotel changed
went for dinner ate fish n chip , i cant finish it
den went to hotel , briefing , packed and slept at
12 plus .

day 5

woke up at 5 , den meet all the muslim at 6.15
we had a breakfast at 4/5 star hotel , only muslim
coz we almost everday had a unproper breakfast
so its like FINALLY ! hahah ! den went to the Aboriginal
park ! den went to the Aboriginal Community Radio ,
yeah ! den off to the Factory Outlet , i bought roxy
bag ! den off to Sydney Airport ! before naik Aeroplane
i buy A$110 worth australia chocolate tau !
tu je

day 6

0000hr
reach singapore Changi Aeroplane !
hug mum and dad , aisyah tumpang me
den i go home straight away sleep !

2008-12-01T11:30:00.001+08:00

MIA !
haha

you are always forgiven

2008-11-18T22:08:00.002+08:00

he said sorry , but ape jer eh !
i seriously got no feeling towards
you ! okay stop !
about someone ! im soo pissed off !
wth ! who am i to her ? she dont know
the thing she said can hurt ppl !
whatever uh ! hais im tired of
your attitude ? hais i donnoe la
currrently : playing habbo with
feeqkyCullen and WanDevil :)

SAKINAH is so confuse

2008-11-13T17:53:00.001+08:00

i feeling miserable :(

habbo:)

2008-11-08T14:38:00.003+08:00

i starting to play habbo now ,

well its fun ! thx to syazwan

and shafiq ! hahaha , well

yesterday i told him to give

each other a rest , for atleast

1 week , he said he cant ,

whenever he check his phone

he was hoping for my msg ..

i as actually damn sad and

kinda miss him now , i keep

thinking of someone , which

i know will not be mine ..

"kalau dah jodoh tak akan

ke mana .." dats what

someone say to me ..

i wish i could msg him now ,

but i will wait till nxt friday

which i hope i can :)

okay till here bye :)

note to self : dont force yourself

no luck !

2008-11-07T17:32:00.002+08:00

today is friday !

play pool with ahmad,

akif den alson came ,

after that syamel and

his sis came , den yimling

den play play until altogether

is $15.20 . i treat ahmad coz

first time lose ! today no

uh =( .. hahahahahahaha

i want play again but

this time round with

my arina , ying ying ,

tina , cheryl and vivien

one day :) now at home

chat with ling sheng ,

listen to music , biting

ice and drink cold plain

water , so refreshing !

ookay i know im lame !

note to self : how long are you going to keep it to yourself ?

2008-11-06T17:37:00.000+08:00

pool :)

im falling

2008-11-06T15:21:00.002+08:00

i can lie to others but

i cant lie to myself ,

hahaha ! i love you !

err something that

is funny , he say im

in love with him ,

well the fact is that

he is jealous ! i know

what sweetheart says

is true . but jealous for

what .. haha ..

well i dont know when

tina , ying , vivien , cheryl

will on be free on one day

to do the modelling

thing .. i already bought

all the stuffs . .

note to self : is this all that you want ?

single is better and better is single

2008-10-31T22:06:00.004+08:00

nothing make me happier
than seeing him entertain
me . haha . well i really
happy for what just happen
yeah ive changed honey !
i changed because of you
haha . well im not feeling
regret now , after what
he said just now .
no one know how thrilled
i am . im glad that he
willing to start first ..
something happen just now
starting with " hallos darling"
and it ends with "love ya"
i promise i will treasure him
although im not his and his not
mine , and im being selfish here
dont steal him away from me
haha , if he really love me
and if we are meant for each
other , fate and destiny will
bring us together soon . =D

to ling sheng sweetheart : thx for
everything !im happpy to have a
FRIEND like you , and i also happy
that we are just good/bestfriend ,
and that is more than enough for me . .
thanks goodfriend !''

note to self : always give ppl second chance

iLoveYou

2008-10-31T08:57:00.000+08:00

i know i had made the wrong decision

and im kinda regret it . do i ? do i ?

ohh ! i should have listen to him !

i mean sweetheart ! oh honey !

why you are not like last time ?

you are so different, vey different

you never ask me whether im

okay or not ! can you just say whats

bugging you ! if you dont know whats

bugging you ! den i also dunnoe !

is there last time to get it right

is there a chance to make it our night

Right now I can hardly breath

And that's all I really need

Make me strong

something that is so sweet !

-everytime sweetheart just wanna

you to stead with sd but sweetheart

dont wanna listen to me=(

-the reason why sweetheart ask

you to stead with him because

i know your heart there's him

-sometime life need to regret one

then they know their mistake

-but in his heart he really wanna

to get you tat time he reach home

already he at msn tell me tat

you reject him

what should i do ?

note to self : follow your heart !

2008-10-29T21:00:00.000+08:00

i just dont know what to do .

its him ! yes its him ! who i

wanna be with ! but i dont

wan him la . so actually which

one i want eh ? hahahahaha

dont wan really think about

it . but its always on my mind

what to do eh ? i dun really

know i love him or not ..

but i dont think my feelings

towards him is soo big ..

but he's kindness , sweetness

that makes me err ???

to my dream world haha lame !

aiya i dunnoe lahh ! no need

think about it so much la !

note to self : its not too late to regret

MissMeButNoLoveMe

2008-10-27T12:16:00.000+08:00

there are three creatures
in my mind now .

i wont mention the name
(dont try to ask coz i wont
be answering and wont be
considering ) but i dont
want those creatures to
spoil my life or should i
say the other way round,
i spoil their life , im a girl
which i myself admit that
im a girl who might be
busted-ing you ! so i think
its better to be friends or
rather close friend better
than regret later , so i guess
just have to wait untill i
grow up

some of the msges
he said" hahas i really love
u liao lea , but not 100% uh .
i really mean it uh , serious ,
hahas maybe i more tou
than her "

i love him before

another he said " if i really
wanna start another
relationship i guess i wanna
be with tat girl v.close or
like everytime talk face to
face before i start relationship
with her" "if you want me to
say i love you to you everyday
i can=)"

err this creature , i think

i dun wan to fall in love

with

another he said " ah show off la ,
no la blurr u la! " (got
somemore but i forgot)

im so into him ! he is so hot !!

damn hot and handsome sia !

2008-10-23T18:14:00.000+08:00

err , i do have feeling for you once ,

but i dont want you to know because i scared

you dont wan to be my friend anymore when you

msg me that time ,

i was damn sad and dissapointed . and

i nvr think or do not wish or want to have a

relationship more than a friend ,and i really love

the way it is now and i really dun noe why

now tell me why you dat time

say you sense that you started liking me ?

sadded , let's fate decide , thats what he said

i do not know what im thinking now

2008-10-21T18:17:00.000+08:00

to whoever read this post ,
if you do not understand
just pretend that you understand

is the same thing going to happen to me ?
what shall i do if the person confess it ?
*clap* sakinah ! good job , you've made this far !
and all this what you will get in the end !
im so stupid ! im the one who started it
and in the end your so called "wishes"
come true but you defending yourself
to prevent the thing that going to happen
*a round of applause* standing ovation ?
are you regreting it now ? coz its no use !
ASSHOLE ! this is what you get ! and its
BULLSHIT ! BULLSHIT !

clap clap ! i am not okay !

2008-10-15T19:46:00.001+08:00

yesterday

went to skool and fetch ying ying, flat and tina nvr talkand i hope they will talk soon .

den go lab wait for like 15 mins. den last minute mr terence ask to go class ,

its like i have wasted 15 mins oh my precious life

well didnt talk to him , after what he had say to me i was so dissapointed, so i told him the truth

i know he keep looking at me and yeah whatever honey ! that time i cant face him at all

its like my heart ... aiya its hurt la , i know whatever it is , its impossible for me

to fall in love with him

den p.e , the girls all never wear pe shirt except amira . lol

all the boys are so guai kia !! hahaha . recess time with syahirah , arina got stomp meeting

lol we talk talk . den line up at parade square . den we go mt .

lol i got 44/60 for mt paper 2 . den english i pass !! yeahhh !! im damn happyy !!

lol. den poa , i can see that teacher is damn dissapointed

lol i highest sia !! 90/100 .. yeahhh !! lol ! den i said shut up to him ! lol !

i was like so angryy !! den go home with flat ...

den he behind us .. we walk faster , but he like nearer and nearer
den flat says "is he catching up his friend , or want to get near you "

lol ! den i was like "errr" lol . take train to home !

den i was like i dunnoe keep waiting for him to online

lol he finally online !! hahah den he never reply me

den mum called "kak siap nak jalan raya"

she ask me to preparing to go my mum's friend house

den i on internet using dad's phone .. den he talk to me . and i say i havent confirm the thing yet

den he say okayy ! den i say can we still be like last time and he said of coz!

i was like so happy .. den we chat chat non stop ! lol its fun..

today

i never go school

den chat with ling sheng !! hahah so fun ! den i order pizza hut delivery....

watch movies , den do the housework

chat with honey ! den he sleep , so i also sleep ! hahahah

i woke up at 6.30 . chat with arina !! a lot of probs .. you know we cant stop ppl's mouth

you know girls like to gossip annd talk badd !!

but we just need to remember if its none of our business why care ?

den chat with honey again . he play games D= den he said that he wanted to play mahjong !

den i say okay with a sad face

den he ask why sad? den i say coz you never entertain me

he said just now go entertain you already what..

den i said not enough den i say kidding ! den i shocked he said "dont fake happy la"

i was like omg !! how he noes ? den he say if he got time he online and talk to me

lol ! i dont thiink he will online lohh !! nvm can see him tmrw okayy lahh im so tired

dahh !!

(dont say ppl ! coz its does not affect you at all)

im sad

2008-10-13T19:37:00.000+08:00

not much thing happen today except for
ying say "it doesnt balance"
hahaha poa sia !!
lol !

i receivemsg from him .. he like suddenly msg me
with my mouth open and my heart says wth ??
what have i done !!!!!
i like so fuck up
but when one is the flame i must be the water
to cool it down
if not i think i go scold him back !!!!!
you think im your what ?!
let just see what happen tmrw in class !

lol ! dont feel like coming to school tmrw coz got bio lehh !!!
i know i confirm fail like what
mr nicholas chim say " you deserved a fail"
coz i anyhow answer
hahaha
lol no confidence in passing bio !
but chem got !!
hahah

i think tmrw get math paper !
i hope i pass !!
wish me luck !

(i dun wanna love you , but you make me love you)

2008-10-08T17:24:00.000+08:00

shamira and flat with their face ? me and mirabell-o
girls day out !
using harvey norman's laptop ! its foc!

so long never post

well many thing has started to change in my life

including him ..

err .. i can believe that he i love you to me isit like real ?

but i dont think so . i think he still in love with her ..

aiya this few days life is so complicated ..

ying ying , shun da

thx for being with me and already there for me when i

needed someone to talk to ..

and im prepared to be there for you guys if you have anything

to share .. and if u need a shoulder to cry on .. tell me hor !

this month my bill high sia !

and my dad promise that he will buy me a prepaid card

yeah !!

i love you dad !!

err to "emo boy"

i know this few days you dont really have mood

but u know i always be there for you when u need me okayy !!

i may not be perfect but i hope i can help you !

and i really wan !

to a girl which i really not fancied of !!

dont try to be soo big infront of me !

coz i dont really care i have soo many thing better to

do then worrying about your staring !

OMG ! im soo scared !

haha

i dunnoe why i so into him !

its like i cant stop thinking of him !

yeah you may not know who !

and dont bother ask coz i will not tell you okay

why must this kind of thing

ever happen to my life !

take note : i love him and i think i want to be with him

she's a fucker !

2008-09-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

what a fuckerr !!
im so sad !
wth !
im tired in all this thing ! when can just you understand me
why you keep siding him !
i hate you !
i said dont involved me and my mum !
pls ! pls ! i love him ! but he just too STUPID !
he so wasting his time !
i sooooooooo saaaaaaaaaaaddd !

what a day !

2008-09-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

today is tiring day !!
me schooling from 7.30 to 5.30
got drama !
must show good example lea !! im the syf stage manager !
haha yeahh !!
then shun da wait for me n vivien .. we go back together but i didnt talk
to shun da that much .. coz talkin to vivien ...
den reach lrt i said to him "thank you darling"
haha
den i say bye to evryone including kuijun and many more

today is the last day of drama and maybe we have 2 more
lesson during holiday

lately veryy busy now because exams coming ! must do revision !

really stress me out !!

oh ya my bill out
800 msges !!
hahaha !!

okayy well
msg shun da too much i guess !
haha
well till here

will blog again !!

what a day !

2008-09-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

i just wanna post !
mum shouting brb !

its Thursday

2008-09-11T19:37:00.000+08:00

wahhhh ...
such tiring dayyy !!
woke up at 5.50am in the morning !
then siaping(get readyy)
at 6.45 drank milo with bread .. hehe nvr puasa
then got out from house at 7.11
my sister lah so late !!!
always make me go skool late !!
haiizzz ! i reach skool at 7.28 !!
den assemblyy.. after that social studies !!
i revise my ss !! so good rite !!!
at the same time think of shabil , syukur , nikmat , yassin , ilham
what are they doing uhh ???
im fucking miss them lahhh !!

i wanna meet them but shabil nvr reply my msg .. i think his pp8
low !!
im so sad !!
after ss was mother tongue !! more bored siaa !!!
the teacher was like so softt !!
nvm its only 2 wks !
after recess i went to the popular bookshop then buy alot of coloured pens and markers
then got malay room and watch movie based on true story tmrw gonna watch with ying2 ,
arina nad mirrah !!
hmmm...
then poa got test and was easy !!!

then got chemistry which i got 100% correct !
yea dun need to go IP!

then math teacher nvr come
i talk with vivien !
at the same time i smsing SHUN DA !

then go drama
i went back at 5 coz i need to fetch my cousin from school !
then went back with darling 2 (shun da) , kui jun and ting hao !

than after that i go fetch my cousin, den go home play game with him
den break fast
den now currently watching CINTA FITRI !!!
and chatting with shun da and praba !!!

dahhh !!
nothing to write already !!

bye <3

Friends

2008-09-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

Arina
vivien
cheryl
tina
yingying
shun da
praba
for the time being this first and i love them so much !

blog again !

2008-09-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

the fourth blog (;
now wanna active back in blog ..

here are the name of my nu er:
Vivien
tina
ying ying
cheryl

only they and shun da noe who my husband hahaha..

its 10 plus at nite ..
and now chatting with praba.

and he helps me with the blog..
thx ya !

i wanna edit more for this blog !!
just wait for my next post !

bye bye

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